Here's a collection of random thoughts. They've been saved in different files in my phone, so I'm going to combine them into one page here to give you a glimpse of several items...

One of my vows: I promise to never take you for granted, and to make sure you feel beautiful inside and out every single day.

Here's a snippet from something I wrote a few days before my birthday:

When I had that thought, it reminded me of us being on the phone like 3 hours before I had to be at work one morning because I couldn't sleep, and you kept saying you wished you could rub my hip and my back to help me sleep. Whatever happened to us, we both became care takers for those we love. We've already talked about us going to therapy together. We are going to have the healthiest and strongest relationship on top of already loving you more than I realized I was capable of. I hope you're ready.

I guess I'm just utterly blown away by you as a person. The biggest influence on my life currently, and the biggest POSITIVE influence on my life EVER, has been someone that I have seen physically in person three times in the two years we have been talking. You have to be one extreme force for positive to have that type of impact without ever being in person. Over the phone and via text message, you've made me more confident, you've made me accept who I am without masking, you've helped me achieve new heights in a new career...the list goes on. With you by my side, I'm going to be unstoppable.

I've probably sent you that IG video about how if you are with a guy when he's going through hell and you stay by his side he will be loyal to you for the rest of his life. Well, unfortunately for you, you were not by my side when I was going through hell. Fortunately for me, you were holding my hand leading me out of hell, walking in front of me showing me the way stopping only to support me when I fell. Loyalty? Loyalty doesn't even begin to mean anything compared to what you've done for me.