It's been a while since I've updated this since we've been able to text more freely, and talked often. Then, I got to live my dream for 5 perfect days.

I'm sorry in the past I have pressured you a lot to answer a question you aren't ready to answer, especially when you have more important things happening right now. Today that really wasn't my intent, I honestly wanted to check in on you and just know that you're good. You being happy is really important to me. But, you were right about the past, and I'm sorry for that. I won't ask again, I'll assume you'll tell me what you want me to know when the time is right for me to know it.

I really miss you. I miss my best friend so much. I just dropped Charlie off for the trip to Charlotte, and I won't see him until Friday. I hope you're able to text me a lot since I won't have Falcor and Charlie to talk to.

You said you knew my anxiety would get worse if I moved down here and so would my depression. It's definitely different than it was in NC. I can usually pinpoint some of the reasons for depression, though not always. But this time around, I certainly can. My anxiety is simply due to Jon freaking out all the time at work. That'll go away when I find a new job. The depression will likely get better when I fix some other issues as well. That's what therapy is for, I guess.

I'm sorry. I really didn't have anything much to say, I just really miss you right now and this is the closest thing I have to talking to you. I miss phone calls that lasted until we went to bed.

Aishiteru, kireisan.