i think im finally starting to get excited about moving back to the point where im more excited than depressed.

obviously ive been excited, but the depression has been stronger than that lately so i havent really felt it.

Anyway, i wanted to mention a couple specifics im excited for.

selfishly, being built up by you. as you said this morning, thats what you do. you are largely responsible for who i am today because of how youve built me up. if youre this successfulover the phone, i cant imagine how much better ill be after you do your building im person.

conversely, i look forward to doing the same thing for you. i dont know if you felt this way, but i felt that this morning you started to feel better by venting to me. youve said multiple times that you feel safe and calm around me. i look forward to building on that as strongly as i can for the rest of my life.

and that leads perfectly to how excited i am about our upward spiral. youre going to make me more awesome, which will make it so i can do the same for you, which will make you do it for me...

aishiteru, kireisan