This video made me realize something about BPD and it made me really sad.

Basically, BPD causes you to have, among many other symptoms, hypervigilance. You look for danger even when there is none and over analyze things, because at some point in your life these were all necessary characteristics that helped you get by day to day.

The things that are making your life difficult today were things necessary to survival previously and were actually incredibly helpful.

Imagining an environment where immediate withdrawal, constant scanning for danger, overanalyzing, etc... was beneficial made me want to give you a hug.

I'm really sorry you had to go through that. You're such a kind person.

I love you, beautiful.