Scrolling, I saw a lovey post and you know me, of course I had to read it.

Oh, turns out you already sent me that picture and we talked about it and how it applies to us. I'm sure when you read the post originally, you had the same thoughts that I'm about to share, but I'm going to do it anyway because you know I like explaining things and talking about them, especially with you.

I don't relate to this second picture at all. Maybe this is sheer insanity on my part, but I'm not afraid about us at all. Don't get me wrong, you could absolutely crush me right now. You have so, so much power to impact me. So much of me is in your hands every day, and you could destroy all of it. I don't want to understate that part.

But still, I'm not afraid at all. I know you wouldn't do that to me. There is no way to convince me that you have any malicious intent. Better yet, there's no way to convince me you have anything but the literal best intentions for us together. You've already taken on and helped me heal so many wounds that you didn't cause.

Which leads me to that. I don't have any fear about you hurting me, even though you are holding enough of me that you definitely could. But while you're holding all those pieces, you're putting them back together stronger than they were before.

We're going to have a rough start when I move down (we've talked about it and will continue to do so), and there will be days that aren't amazing. And I know it will be worth it all, because you've already taken the time to prove to me what things are going to look like. And I know you're going to continue to help me, just as I'm going to do everything I can and help you.

Our strong emotional connection is exactly that. It is both of us holding so very much of the other person in our hands, and delicately helping each other piece ourselves back together.

So yes, we may hurt each other, but like we talked about when you sent this over to me it will be accidental, and we'll do better next time.

But I'm not even a little afraid about a more serious type of hurt that either of us could do to the other one at this point, because I know neither of us would.

Aishiteru, kireisan. 15 more days.