You probably already know about this, but maladaptive daydreaming (MD) is when someone uses very intense daydreaming about different scenarios as a coping mechanism for trauma, loneliness, etc...

Side note: Sorry, I didn't mean to mansplain it to you, but it is kind of key to the talking point here so it was worth defining.

I almost feel like I'm on the borderline of maladaptive daydreaming. I keep thinking about our future together, constantly, and what a dream-like circumstance it is. Our goals line up. Our interests line up. Where our interests don't line up, we support each other. I keep thinking of (and writing down, so I make sure they happen) plans for dates for us to go on or activities to do together.

But, I don't think it is maladaptive daydreaming, at least not yet, for two reasons. One, every bit of information I have right now says these things are going to happen. I'd definitely think it was MD if you had told me we weren't happening but I kept thinking about it. And two, it hasn't interfered with every day life or tasks at all, in fact it has made me work harder so I can make sure these things happen.

For instance, it makes me better at my job, because I can't be a remote worker if I lose my job. I can't afford to plan our dates (whether taking you out to show off how hot my girlfriend is or staying at home having fun together alone) if I don't have a job.

I guess I'm just really excited about the future, and I'm so new to that feeling and so afraid of it I find a label or diagnosis to describe it.

What I'm saying is you're so perfect it's frightening that maybe I'm insane :D

Really though, what I'm saying is I'm so very excited for our future together. I don't know if we will be able to do everything we want and everything we plan, but I do know that no matter what we will love each other through it.

Goodnight, beautiful.