Hi beautiful!

I don't know if you'll check this or not before we talk. But in the case that you do, I wanted to make sure you know I love you. As a friend, as a lover. I don't know what you're feeling right now until you tell me obviously, so as expected I'm in a full on panic mode and trying not to think all the negative things my brain defaults to. edit: this panic isnt your fault. its me dealing with my unresolved issues. i hope you didnt read this before now. the anxiety isnt your fault, you havent done anything wrong.

But I've said two things from the start, and I want to reiterate them and perhaps a few others.

I want you in my life, always.

I love you. I want you happy and healthy. It sounds like I'm not going to want to hear what you have to say, but once again you impress me and make me love you a little more because even though it sounds like whatever you've got to say isn't going to be easy to say, you're still straight forward and honest with me. Thank you.

As always, thank you for being who you are. You're very easy to love. Aishiteru, kireisan.