Again, still all lovey, so if this will bother you reading it, skip this one. Eventually I'll have to write something about how yesterday (9th of June) went for me. It started with going through TSA and doing the arms in the air scanny thing. The guy showed me the picture results of that with a red dot on my dick and balls (and thighs near that) and said "I'm going to have to feel there with the back of my hand. Do you want to do it in private or here?" My day only got worse from there. That was 7AM. (Side note: if someone feels your thigh with the back of their hand, where is the palm of their hand?) Anyway, on to the love:

I'm doom scrolling instead of sleeping since I am not sure I will wake up on time, and that's not an option right now.

A sweet post about how women knew they were in love with their partners came up. Some of the reasons I related to:

"I wanted to be change every bad habit I had so that I could be the best version of myself for him." I've definitely been working on that (and failing at times, as well.) Putting myself in overdrive to get my shit together and have a fully stocked home with furniture for a family.

"My inner child came out" to which the speaker notes that this is a sign of a safe nervous system. I think we both do this to each other; make each other feel safe. It's just like how I tell you your voice is so soothing to me. Part of it is an auditory trigger, sure. But part of it is because the voice belongs to you.

"I felt safe to cry in front of him" Definitely goes both ways again on this one. Crying hasn't been safe ever for me, so that's very new. I've always been apathetic to the results of crying in front of people because I've always known it should be okay to do, but it certainly never was.

"He never drained my social battery. I couldn't and still can't get enough of him." I've told you many times before you recharge my social battery.

I guess I'm all up in my feels for you right now. They're still there, and just as strong as ever. I miss you so very much.

I love you, beautiful.